Monday, 13 August 2012

Morning peeps! I'm early today. Just want to put on quick shout out. This week, people will be on leave as festive season approaching. I'm not really sure whether I'm looking forward to it. To be honest, this year, I was so busied with so many things. Too many things came at one time. Ok different topic, yesterday, a friend of mine approached me to borrow some money.To be fair, I'm not good at it. Because it happened to be last time when that person borrowed my money, heshe (haha) never pay back! not even single cent! Heshe was so kind to me all the time but for me when it comes to money I become stingy as I know its hard to earn money and other people can simply using it! Not fair to me right?? I felt so bad when I rejected heshe request but anyway I cant be too kind to people right? At the end of the day, I dont want to suffer from whatever things that other people do. For me, If I allowed heshe to borrow my money, I can see in the future there is no guarantee heshe wont borrow from me again! plus when it comes to pay back time, for sure I'm a bit reluctant to ask! It will definitely reflect back to me that I didnt trust heshe. I just want to remind myself though, there are so many kinds of people. And each of them behave differently and its up to me how to judge them coz at the end of the day, I dont want to tied up or clean their mess a.k.a shit! Number two, being kind is really noble but too kind, its just a wrong thing! Bear in mind, some people like to take advantage on it. As of now, I have to behave appropriately according to situation. These days, sometimes I become heartless.Its hard to do that but for my own sake, I have to do it. I was too good back then but now I have to brush off some of my kindness just to give myself space to express things that I dont like. For instance, normally at the office, when others try to fire back a silly question which they already know the answer, I definitely throw back silly answer to them. But sometimes I choose to keep quiet as I dont want to add the tension. Sometimes when I blurted out things I hate, I do feel guilty coz I'm kind off expressing negative elements but I think its more healthy rather than tell people. Anyway both are good. At least, I dont keep it inside and once things are done, its done. Anyway thats all, negative elements on the morning, yawwnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn hehe Hope everything goes well today! Have good one amigos! ciao

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